yesterday i lost one of the diamond earrings alex got me for my 30th birthday. i had had a bad day (student rough drafts weren’t just sandpaper rough they were cut-your-foot- open-like-broken-glass rough), a misunderstanding with a teacher i have total respect for and turning in a 65 page project that evidently i misread the instructions for. yuck.
school is hurtling to a close with the wind of anxiety and anticipation. while i am excited to student teach, i have to admit i am feeling a little unsure of my decision to do so. my friend dannah says to remember this is a decision for now; it doesn’t have to be a “rest of my life” decision, and she is right. the friends i saw last weekend were so inspiring, all doing something in the arts or bringing the arts to kids, and i envy that. i’m not sure i’ll be able to nurture my love of the arts while imparting the importance of participles to the sons and daughters of the suburban revolution.
so hear is where i get to the CYCLE OF SIXES. some of you have heard me talk about this before. i have this theory that every six years we ever evolving little dancing and singing human beans go through an emotional and personal trasnformation that feels like we are flattened out, dough style, and run through a machine to turn us into various noodle shapes, flexible and bendy until six years later, when we do it all over again.
here’s how it works (these are expectations from the world and realities of events):
age 6: first grade, full day of school, no more nap time. age 12: middle school, torturous onslaught of puberty, school dances, acne. age 18: after high school, making life decisions, living on your own in college or not, the FUTURE. age 24: on track in a job, dating the person you’ll marry, becoming a contribbuting member of society. age 30: you start having kids, get a promotion, buy your first house. and so on.
i don’t fit many of these molds but i find that there are days where i feel like, if i had or did, life would be infinitely easier. that is not to say i dislike my life, it just has speedbumps in it that most drivers never even realize exist.
so here’s to 30, the fifth stop on my cycle of sixes. a place of accepting myself and praying the woman i’ve become is happy in the job i think i want, a place of feeling completely lovedand praying i am worth it, and a place of total joy and wonder at the spirit and beauty of my friends and praying that a little of their spirit and beauty rubs off on me.
Interesting.. this cycle 6 idea. I am a year late on my… hmmm… 8th cycle, and didn’t follow the 4th and 5th norm at all. But, I do seem to have a big change every 6 years. This year it is getting out of a dead end retail job and into a career, but I am 49 and the change won’t actually take place until sometime next month. Still….I quit the retail job a month ago and I’m on my way. Hope the 9th cycle will be something like just chucking all the day-to-day stuff and heading out to explore the world.
This post, however off-topic it may be, is about Internet freedom. \”Network Neutrality\” — the First Amendment of the Internet — ensures that the public can view the smallest blog just as easily as the largest corporate Web site by preventing Internet companies like AT&T from rigging the playing field for only the highest-paying sites.
But Internet providers like AT&T, Verizon and Comcast are spending millions of dollars lobbying Congress to gut Net Neutrality. If Congress doesn\’t take action now to implement meaningful Net Neutrality provisions, the future of the Internet is at risk.
In the end game, only large companies will afford domains if the communications monopolies have their way with this. This of course isnt new news, but its coming to a head and blogs like this one will be a ghosttown unless all of us figure it our pretty darn quick. I wont post any links, but advise that if you value the internet, and blogs likw this one, that you search Google for \”Network Neutrality\” and educate yourself on this issue as it effects all of us.