ok, i’m busy at lovewell and creative enough to not steal jamie’s blog ideas, but losery enough to go ahead and steal them.

1) Favorite hobby?
making snarky comments and then reprimanding myself for them later.

(2) How do you feel about your ex?
i’m curious as to why he is so hrd to stalk on google.  i have NO interest in seeing him, but i’d like to know he is still breathing.  

(3) Do you own guns?
only the ones you can see at the gun show.

(4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic?
nothing.  flavors are for lameos.

(5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
not really.  i figure they have seen far gnarlier things than i am bringing to their attention.

(6) What do you think of hot dogs?
hells yes, with mustard, garlic, and onion.

(7) Favorite Christmas song?
‘it’s in every one of us’ john denver and the muppets xmas

(8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?  diet coke

(9) Can you do push ups?
i can do anything if the price is right.

(10) Can you do a chin up?
see above.

(11) What’s your favorite piece of jewelry?
i love the diamond studs alex gave me for my 30th birthday, and my wedding/engagement ring.  they remind me of how lucky i am.

(12) Do you like blue cheese?
no, thank you.

(13) Ever been in a car wreck?yes: hydroplaned into a delineator while listening to indigo girls and fighting with my brother about my musical taste.

(14) Do you have ADD?

what? i wasn’t paying attention.

(15) What’s one trait that you hate about yourself?
if there’s anything, it’s that i believe human beings have the power to change anything they choose to about themselves, and i am really bad at being self-motivated enough to change anything.

(16) Middle name?
kathleen, same as my mom’s–it’s my gma’s name.

(17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
1. will i finish this before we leave for dinner?  2.  what are we having for dinner?  3.  i hope i don’t get heartburn from dinner.  (i’m clearly on one track, here)

(18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
pasta alfredo, a beer at the flight deck, and beer for the room.

(19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1. diet coke 2. Water 3. peach flavored seltzer water

(20) Current worry?
luckily, none

(21) Current hate right now?
the sweat under my pits.

(23) How did you bring in the New Year?
with friends and way too much booze at my casa

(24) Where would you like to be right now?
exactly in this place, perhaps with the addition of my man

(25) Do you like bok choy?

(26) Do you own slippers?
yes but they make my feet hot as balls

(27) What shirt are you wearing?
hippie dippie shirt from vall marr and some sweet elle jeans from kohls, and my heart on my sleeve (ah, tender)

(28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
no, they’re too slippery

(29) Can you whistle?

(31) Would you be a pirate?
i already am.  arrgh.

(32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
everything i can think of

(33) Favorite girl’s name?
veronica mess

(34) Favorite boy’s name?   tong o dong dong

(35) What is in your pocket?
room key

(36) Last thing that made you laugh?  the idea that carrie will have a sound proof wheelchair when she gets older to muffle her gas

(37) Best bed sheets as a child?
sesame street

(38) Worst injury you ever had?
plantar fascitis in my heel that required an ULTRA painful cortisone shot

(39) Do you like where you live?
minus spiders, i would love it

(40) How many TVs do you have in your house?

(41) Who is your loudest friend?
because i am my own best friend, seriously it’s me

(42) How many dogs do you have?
none but i’m hoping for a puppy for my birthday 

(43) Does someone have a crush on you?
i think alex does…i hope so.

(44) Favorite book?
skinny legs and all

(46) What is your favorite candy?
mmmmmmm, milk duds.

(47) Favorite Sports Team?
ku everything

(48) What song do you want played at your funeral?
no idea

(49) What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
signing off of aim with alex

(50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up today?
why did i dream about having to choose between cheating ladies’ man ethan hawke and nice guy james mcavoy last night?


week 1, lovewell 08

June 22, 2008

coming back to lovewell is like coming home.  i found this little place on the planet when i was only 14, and spent 3 summers awakening the creative spirit within me, in harmony with 30-40 other people.  now–as a staff member–i get to relive that experience with students and other adults, and because of my age i am more appreciative of what this is, what it does, and how it can shape, define, and save a life.

shaping: the kid with no safe harbor, who is always on the outskirts, a little too intense, a little too talkative, a little to emotive, whatever—here, that kid has a home.

defining: the student who loves to write, and loves music, who discovers here that he is a songwriter, and ends up going to princeton. (what, what, pomerantz)

saving:  all of us who need to feel there is somewhere on the planet where NO ONE judges us—where the decisions we make are accepted because we are uniquely and honestly human, and that humanity connects, rather than separates us.

i say a prayer of thanks each day that this is the life i was born into, and one of thanks that lovewell exists for those who only find safety here.  it is hard to imagine a world where some people never feel safe and accepted.

of course, when i am here i miss my physical home.  i ache to hug my husband, tell him in person how much i love him, sit in the same room with him and just be.  i speak to him every day, and spoke to my mom yesterday, and was reminded that i am one of the lucky ones.  this peace of lovewell in ft. lauderdale is carried with me all year round because the people in my life are stunning. 

here i am

June 16, 2008

at lovewell now.  rock taststic.  a few gems from the process so far.

: here i am…barack me like a john mccain. (e.d.)


there are some people who could be catchin’ bj’s around here. (m.d.)


your love is like a whale to me, i try to reel it in but it is too big (s.d.g.)


is this a musical? (quoted by j.j.m.)


is he smuggling a shasta can in those shorts? (all)


because on fridays… (c.g.)

this is me at 2:30 a.m. before picking up erin



all packed, ready to go.  i’m so excited, but stressed slightly about the traveling, which make me anxious due to my deep need to be in control, and the fact that i am leaving alex.  of course my husband is a grown man who can take care of himself, but this morning we discovered, after a trip to the walk in clinic, that he has been bitten by a brown recluse spider.  suck.  so he’s been ibuprofening and cold compressing all day, and i stripped the bed and found and killed the fucker.  i HATE shit like this–uncontrollable, frightening, and completely random.  the swelling is going down, and it look like it is getting better–it was not a big bite, but scary nonetheless.  if you are in town while i am away you might think of ringing him up to say hey, and to make sure his chest hasn’t turn black with spider funk.

ok, so the challenge, which i know you are intrigued by.  this semester some peeps at my school decided to exchange cds that were narratively representative of themselves.  we listened to the musical versions of each others lives and, in the words of ani difranco: 

 I know there is strength                                                                                                                                        in the differences between us

 and I know there is comfort
 where we overlap

so the challenge to you is: make a playlist of the songs that, when played together, tell the story of your life. you can tell your whole story, or only a portion of it, but you must use at least 12 and no more than 20 tracks.  spoken word tracks allowed, but should be kept to a minimum.  

here’s mine–happy creating!!

Joyful Girl	                        Ani DiFranco	        Dilate	
Play Something We Know	                Adam Hood	
You Can't Always Get What You Want	The Rolling Stones	Let It Bleed	
The Band Played Waltzing Matilda	Pogues	                Very Best of the Pogues	
American Music	                        Violent Femmes	        Add It Up (1981-1993)	
The Story	                        Brandi Carlile	        The Story	
Girl In the War	                        Josh Ritter     	The Animal Years	
Jane Says	                        Jane's Addiction	Nothing's Shocking	
All Through The Night	                Cyndi Lauper    	Twelve Deadly Cyns...And Then Some	
Atlantic City	                        Bruce Springsteen	Bruce Springsteen - Greatest Hits	
Ladylike Featuring Dave Navarro         Storm Large and the Balls	
Hotel Song	                        Regina Spektor	        Begin to Hope (Bonus Track Version)
F**k Was I	                        Jenny Owen Youngs	Batten the Hatches	
Where Do We Go From Here	        Alicia Keys	        As I Am	
Home	                                Marc Broussard	        Carencro	
Hallelujah	                        Jeff Buckley	        Grace


June 11, 2008

headed to fl on sat for 3+ weeks: yeah, lovewell!!!!!!  trying to pack all my shiz into one checked, one carry on, and one backpack is kickin my ass.  boo, airlines, for charging to check bags.


i am so excited to go, but i will miss mr. chips and tea like crazy.


alex’s car is still in the shop, how long does it take to fix a freaking seat belt??   so sharing a car is making us hang out more and surprisingly, we don’t hate each other yet.  we’re both so independent that we need our space, and that extends to our automobiles.


the commercial for gas-x where they say ” your son rip is on line toot” cracks me up everytime.  because i’m 5.


jason is the coolest.


even though i am much more of a dog person than a cat person, this made me giggle.

pull off the band-aid

June 5, 2008

one of my biggest pet peeves is when people can’t just pull off the band-aid, acknowledge that an era is over, and move on.  each time you think you’ve shut a door to a room, someone comes banging on it with an axe and forces you to go into that damn room with them. a room filled with forgettable art, bad poetry, and the slightly sweet smell of rotten fruit.

you see, i’m watching someone move into his moment of greatness, starting to hit a stride (or at least trying to hit one) and it is hard to be his staunch supporter knowing somewhere there is a woman too immature to just let him be.   

this post could be about hillary clinton, who clearly needs to give up the ghost.  i could be telling her to back off, stay quiet, and move on.  i would be a nicer person if this was purely political.  but, if the person this is actually about should happen across this post, please please please, pull off the band-aid because you are the only one still hanging on.

my niece (!)

June 5, 2008

alex’s sister abi and her wonderful husband brent welcomed little charlotte anne into the world at 10:20 pm on June 3rd.  she is my first niece, and i am aching to get to ohio to see the happy family.  she is such a blessed child, to have a and b for parents.  they are brilliantly kind, hysterically funny, honestly good people and i love them dearly.  welcome welcome welcome to the world, little one.